Yesterday was a great day. It was one of those days where I finally felt the way I should, and was thinking the way I should, and was making plans as I should...

Today was an okay day. Gave into the loneliness a smidge, didn't have as many of the thoughts as I should be having but at least there were some. I didn't make plans but at least I didn't feel defeated.

I enjoy the good days. They make me feel stronger.

I'm terrified of tomorrow though. My nerves are just... *exhales* I just need to trust I can do this...

Please... Please, let me do this. It would change so much... I just know it...

I'll talk to you guys again soon. After. We'll see.