June 13, 2013
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On Firmer Feet
Today has been much, much easier. Slept all night for once, Tiny is back to being herself and eating regularly, errands have kept me busy, and Game of Thrones has kept me company and lent perspective. [The characters in that book have real problems.]
Now I'm back to wondering what Xanga's fate will be. The donations have reached just over $25K now, so the possibility of this site being lost is very real... *sigh* Not sure what I'll do yet if I can't vent on here... It helped to get all my ache out yesterday (or was it Tuesday? I don't remember). This place is my only means to get all the bad out of my body so I don't keep holding it in, since I can't exactly go to Yancy and them for comfort. *Sigh* We'll see what happens I guess...
I really want to hit the water again, but now I can't since the clock is ticking. [I'm late.] Which also explains why the start of this week was so frikkin hard. Damn hormones.
That was probably TMI, my apologies.
I'm in a weird mood now. I can't quite label it. It's not "numb" because I'm definitely feeling something but I don't know if it's good or bad...
*Shakes head* I'll just go back to reading. I just realized I haven't read volume ten of Sailor Moon yet, so I'll have to reread at least the last chapter of volume 9 sometime this week before I do. Otherwise I won't remember crap.
But first, back to Eyre and the sky cells. [It's a wicked "dungeon" on the side of a mountain that has three walls, the "fourth" being completely open to the sky and side of the mountain -- and the floor is slightly slanted. Yeah. Don't piss off the people of the Eyre.]
I wanna role play again. I should get to rereading the B4K4 Boards soon so I'd have a handle on Keitan again (and the other ~9 characters I created).
Embarrassed!
That's what I'm feeling.
I'm not proud of these weak moments. And I'm trying. Really.
I'll get it.
