April 2, 2013

• At Night.

  I don't know where to begin.

  Nothing in my home life has changed, yet a lot of things are happening.

   

  I start my new job this coming Monday. Should've been today but it was postponed. Long story. It's a miracle I got the job at all since I had to make an interview with swollen, red eyes the morning after Dafne broke up with me.

   

  My head spins at night.

   

  I just want to be happy again.

   

  The new job will pay $9 an hour once I start. Maybe if I work enough I can do one of my resolutions this year. I'm still looking into becoming a substitute teacher, but so far there aren't any openings yet and the school year's almost over. In the meantime it's retail for me since the office jobs at Dad's work (and several other offices I've applied to online) didn't work out.

  I keep trying to write. Every day I try.

  But I can't feel my fire...

  I feel like such a waste these days.

   

  But I put on the smile.

  I'm quite the little actress.

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