January 31, 2013
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(Cont.)
Back again, because I'm still upset and can't sleep. Or rather, haven't even tried to GO to sleep because I can't seem to quiet my mind.
I was fired... God, it feels so wrong... I was so careful and counted bloody EVERYTHING to make sure that kind of crap never happened again but they just kept coming at me with correctives and I couldn't defend myself because 1+weeks after the fact, I can't remember if I scanned it or not... But I was careful and counted and made sure everything matched the screen and coupons... I just don't get it...
And now I'm fired...
He said I can use them as a reference and he (what seemed to be genuinely) wished me luck... But I don't know if I should or not -- then again when asked why I left the last job and I say "let go" and NOT provide them a reference it'll look worse... God. -_-
I found the site online. Googled my question about how soon to apply and it says as soon as possible since benefits start from when you apply, not when the job ended. I'm going to look over BJ's side in the morning to be safe and if nothing seems amiss I'll apply then. The site's open in another tab.
God this sucks. I hate feeling like this. Like I failed or am a screw up. I worked hard and tried my best at everything there and only called out when I absolutely couldn't stand (referring to my fainting/dizzy spells). I just feel like such a screw up...
I guess it happens to everyone at some point in their lives (or the general "everyone" you use in these kinds of statements), but it just... Got it sucks that it happened to me...
I'm a good worker... I hate feeling like someone believes I'm not.
