Mom never means her apologies. Because it is never her fault.

And I'm really f*cking tired of it.

And the fact she had the gall to call me a selfish daughter who doesn't want to help her family because I freaked out (in fear) about the idea of lending them money to buy a house.

1) She didn't ASK. She just said "What's your credit card limit? Oh, then we can just put it all on her card." 

2) She threw the phrase around "to buy a house" without telling me the actual amount. How the hell is that NOT supposed to scare me?

3) I voice my concerns about the loan and the fact that she just planned it as if I didn't have a choice when it's MY money and SHE gets mad at ME because she knows I've lent to my friends so why not them. (Meaning she's ignoring me/missing the point).

4) She has the fucking gall to accuse me of being selfish or bad daughter after the fucking THOUSANDS i've lent them over the years!? THEY FUCKING SPENT MY COLLEGE TUITION MONEY AND NEVER PAID ME BACK SO I HAD TO WORK FOR MY TUITION ALL FOUR YEARS.

I'm done. I'm just... I'm f*cking done with her.