September 28, 2012
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Be still, My Heart...
He's an incredible man. I'm sorry, I promised myself I wouldn't do these kinds of posts anymore, but since I kind of broke the promise this morning already, I figured what's the harm in starting the attempt over again tomorrow?
He's incredible.
He had a long hard day/shift at work leaving him with an aching left leg, yet when called to the stage during an "improv" segment with the audience that required him to run back and forth, he gave it his all. :) He gave a wacky, memorable, and hilarious performance that had the entire theatre roaring with laughter. I don't think I would have been brave enough to give it my all like that...
He's an incredible man...
I promised I wouldn't admit it to myself anymore -- though I can always feel it and know it's happening -- but since it's not yet midnight, I'll try again starting tomorrow:
I'm still falling.
And it's still an incredible feeling.
I was so happy tonight, watching this amazingly crafted play overflowing with comedy while sitting beside the man I love and somehow finding comfort in the fact that no one around us could know I wasn't his -- couldn't see the uneven level of emotion for each other...
Comfort in the small blessing that, while trying to snatch my money out of the car-door cubby (behind me) to give back to me (I was trying to pay him back for my ticket + my ticket from when we had to cancel last week, but he wasn't having it) I was able to stay against/close to him a little longer (nothing sexual about this, more like aura/presence/home-y type of thing).
I wish he would have held me tighter... But then again, if I'm wishing...
It's midnight now, so I should end this...
I'm going to bed with a smile on my face and this still-growing love in my heart. I'll save the tears and panic and sorrow for tomorrow.
For tonight,
I am in love.
And I'm happy.
