Hey Sweets!

Everyone pretty much wrote what I would like to say so I guess I'll say what they don't or won't say. Sweets you are a beautiful young woman who has been hurt much to deep by the boy she loves. I say boy because a young man wouldn't have hurt you so deep and given you such flimsy excuses. But that is something that I think you are understanding little by little and isn't really any of my business. However, what is my business is you.

When I met you in tenth grade I didn't really think we would be friends this long, but I'm so glad we are. You have no idea what having a friend like you means to me. As a freshman I didn't really have many friends, I mean I talked to some people hung out with them, but I couldn't talk to them as I could you. I think you, Kat, and Derrick were my first true friends. The kind of friends that have stuck by me for years and I hope continue to. Sweets I don't think I would have made it through so many things with out you. There are things I tell you that I don't tell the others and talking to you gives me another perspective.

You say you've changed and you can't stand to look at yourself, but I see you and I love you for who you have become. You have long stop being a child, you are a young woman with the insecurities of a young woman. Just because you aren't who you once were doesn't mean you have to be disgusted. I love everything about you. You are a kind, smart, funny, beautiful, sensitive girl with a beautiful heart. Just because you aren't as confident or as out going as you once were doesn't mean that you have become a horrible person. I know that you are working hard in changing your self, but all you really have to do is accept your self and better what you don't like.

If you take one thing from this just take that you aren't defined by what you were once, it is by who you are becoming. Even if you aren't happy with who you are you should know that we are pretty darn happy with you.

I love you (you really are my favorite)

Hello linda, it's Nancy again.  I know I don't know you for that long and don't have any rights to give you advises but since your story sound a lot like mine I felt related or bound to you some how.  You said that you are not that girl anymore, well let me tell you what... you are wrong!  It's like someone who learn a different language as a child and never use it again.  You could say you don't speak it any more but it's in the back of your head and as you start using it it becomes more and more live on you. Let's do a test, I beat that right now you are not thinking of any songs but with the right words you can recall a song form your childhood that you can remember from begining to end and you'll say "I can believe I still remember it".  I had a friend who was black belt in Karate and had the body of the hulk (actually we used to call him hulk).  He was never violent although he could kill you with his pinky but one day someone in a school a guy slapped his sister in the face so hard that broke her tooth and her lips with that and he lost it.  He kick that guy's ass and 5 or his friends that try to stop him, it took a few teachers and other big guys at the school to hold him down and they had to tie him with a rope in order to hold him down. 

How does that refer to you...  We have a common enemy (the devil) and he knows your potential in God's hands.  He is master of disguys (not sure of spelling for disfraces) he has to tie you up with layers and layers of things so you feel that you can't do anything.  Sorry to sound like a preacher but you need some help and your help is GOD.  I don't know your background but I feel that you must have a lot of potential in God's hands and that's why the devil is trying to hold you down and tie you up so you feel useless.  Maybe as a child you went to church or maybe you know people who does and the enemy knows that you will go one day.  You have a POWERFULL tool in you, you are a writer and were must of the people go to look for answers to BOOKS.  Books is one of the tools that will never been defeted, why you thing the Bible, THE WORD OF GOD, was WRITTEN instead of left in the head and memory of the people, God may have rely in his power to let people get His Word in their heads by a miracle, but He chosen to WRITE IT DOWN.  You will influence a lot of people and have the power to make them think the way you want.  That's what the devil knows and he wants you controlled by him, but if you turn around and say NO, I'll only let my head controlled by God, you will be able to start braking that cocoon and let tha beutiful butterfly inside FREE.  Don't let the enemy tie you up, ask for God's help, after all he created you and gave you the talent you have. 

Just in case you haven't realized the talent you have, think about a movie or a book and how sometimes the writer makes you feel in favor of a bad guy.  Perfect example, I just started to see a series called "Dexter"  I have only seen 4 episodes but I already love the main caracter and rule for him and get this "HE'S A SERIAL KILLER" how crazy is that.  That's the power of the writers, THAT'S YOUR POWER, don't let the enemy control it, let God guide your hands and your life.

I love you girl, please think positive and realized that once you get out of the cocoon you will be amazing, but you have to brake that cocoon, that's what give you the strengh to keep on.